Wife, Mummy, Nurse: The Ugly Truth

18 July 2013

The Ugly Truth

This week, mainly yesterday and today, I've been feeling depressed, down, frustrated, etc. I did not sleep well at all last night and tried napping when Charis napped today, but was unable to fall asleep.

On Wednesdays, Charis and I attend prayer meeting and every single time, at least one person asks, "How's the job search for Drew?" Each time I say, "There's no news." I'm tired of saying the same thing week after week after week...  This is something we've been praying about for the last three years.  The bad part is, I feel like giving up. I know God can provide a job for Drew, but I don't know why He hasn't.  He's applied to numerous private schools-both for Spanish positions and Social studies positions, and the school he was a long term sub for, he applied for two positions, and they did not even call him for an interview.

On top of that, the last two summers Drew's hours have increased for tutoring, but this summer, they've decreased.  We're already living from paycheck to paycheck and are stretched.  We're in a one bedroom apartment, and I feel like I'm at my wits' end. I don't know how much longer, we'll be able to do this.  As I told Drew last night, "It sucks." Yes, I said that and now wrote it, and I'm thankful he did not ream me out for saying that {He's never reamed me out or shouted in anger/frustration at me.}  Instead, he prayed for me and with me.

Sorry for rambling, but I needed to write it out.  My journal's in the bedroom where Charis is sleeping.

4 comments:

  1. Sarah, finally i can post just wanted to say that GOD is faithful and only gives you as much as you can handle. Everything he does is for a reason, we may not understand it at the momemt but we will in due time. Here is a link to my pastors series.. i hope it helps. http://www.sdrock.com/messages/whydobadthingshappen/

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  2. Will keep you and yours in my prayers. Sometimes situations do suck (there, I said it, too). But you know (and I know you do know) that this is not the end of this chapter of God's story for your family. Having a praying husband is such a gift! Hang in there, my friend. :)

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  3. I'm sorry you're struggling with this. I'll be praying for you and your family. I'm thankful that God has blessed you with a faithful, praying husband.

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  4. praying for you both about this. thank you for being honest. i complain all the time with less reason....one of my biggest challenges this year,

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